Tales of Tina: 2013

Monday, December 16, 2013

Steampunk Christmas

We (as in I) told mom and dad that we needed to change the theme this year for Christmas. So I came up with Steampunk and they are fully behind it. There were a couple of fun nights of family crafting to change up boring ornaments and make them more personal. And the bonus is that I will keep them for my own tree for the future. Muhahaha! Oh, sorry did that get revealed? Hope you enjoy some of our creations.

Awkward

Why are holidays so awkward?

I posted on Facebook that being in your 30's, single during the holidays sucks. I got lots of "enjoy it while it lasts" or "someone will come along" and occasionally "ditto". I should have been a bit more specific when I was posting that thought. Out of all my siblings I am the only single one which at the dining table or family functions makes me the odd man out. To top it off I am the eldest so it seems like a bit of a blow to the ego when all of my younger siblings have someone they can bother on a daily basis.

Don't get me wrong, I love my life! I have some awesome friends, my family absolutely rocks, and when needed I have pillows to cuddle up to at night. There is just something about this time of year that when you are single that makes public events uncomfortable. Guess I just need to embrace the awkward.

2011 Family Pics

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Punishment

I try my best to stay positive, happy, and to a degree non-personal about what is going on around me though lately it feels like I am being punished for crimes against friendship that I am pretty sure I didn't violate. I am talking about incidents that happened years ago, though I am still the one being punished.

I just don't get it.

I am the constant, the one that is always there, the one that will do anything for my friends, but I am the one being ignored. Maybe it's because I don't flatter people's egos, I probably give too much and get taken advantage of which I am aware of. (Also, been fighting a huge bout of loneliness lately since ending a previous relationship that looking back on I wasn't quite ready for). Maybe I am reading too much into the non-actions of friends or maybe not. Facebook can be an awesome thing and sometimes it can be very cruel. Great if you want to torture yourself with "that could have been me" mentality. I guess what I am trying to state it that I feel like Colonel Branden in Sense & Sensibility; always well thought of, has high regard, though no one actually wants around.

I know I was going to try to be more positive, but you can only hold so much before it spills out. I really should go see a therapist.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Privacy

I think I will be pulling back from talking about my love life. Mostly because it seems to cause issue with the person I am currently seeing, but also since not everyone needs to know what is going on in my private life. So from now on I will only post about hair, fashion, make up, projects and highlights of my family life. Think that pulling back in general is a good idea and therapeutic in many ways. :)

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Bring It All Together

I wonder if there is any way to link my blogger and Instagram together? Now wouldn't that just be spiffy? Though I have noticed that I am slacking at updating. New habits need to be established and put into effect. :)

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Dating Life

I try to keep my dating life pretty private but today I am going to do a public vent.

I found someone quite on accident over a year ago whom I found to be the perfect match for me; not perfect in any shape or form just someone I could ultimately be myself. Unfortunately timing is everything and he moved out of state. Tried for a little while to do the long distance thing but out of the blue he stopped talking to me. Some time later we strike up a conversation again just to see if we can continue a friendship if anything. I still have strong feelings for this person and now use him as the standard on whom I should be dating. I have expressed a desire to come to see him again to maybe rekindle some attachment where he goes to state he is seeing someone else.

This throws me in a tizzy and a bit of a funk. A bad funk actually.

So in order to get myself out of that I started doing the online dating scene again. Not sure if I'm able to do another round of meet and greets ending in disappointment on either side. Mind you if it is a drinks meeting I try my best to get there early to buy my own drink so there isn't sense of obligation. I know I am older and wiser but why aren't things at least getting easier?

Is it so hard to find a best friend who you want to share your life with?

To top it off I have someone else that I cannot shake out of my system. This person doesn't always bring out the best of me and I usually end up being hurt more by him. Though for whatever reason I want this person around even knowing that this relationship is unhealthy.

Goodness, I have myself in a pickle.

Friday, April 12, 2013

Such a Slacker

Goodness, I realized I haven't posted anything of worth in a long while.

Mainly due to the fact not much is going on and I'm a major slacker. Just work, localized socialization when required of myself, and focusing on myself for a bit. In that last part it is so I can get back into good health, lose the weight so I can fit a size 10 (let's be realistic here), and hopefully prep myself for any future kids.

December & January: Let's see we started the year with losing Jack Daniels McAllister, my sisters awesome husky. This was such a hard blow to everyone in the family and I still miss the fuzzbutt on a daily basis. As far as we know Jack died of liver failure due to undiagnosed hepatitis. Jess took his loss the hardest of course since Jack was her fur baby. Time is making thins better for her and there are only a few times where she has a rough day. Since Jack passed Jess was pretty lonely which gave me an opportunity to move in with her. So far so good and we haven't strangled each other yet.

February: There have been some happenings such as going to Camarillo, Ca for my uncle Lonnie's 50th birthday party. That was such a whirlwind trip, but oh so fun since all of the Sizemore cousins were in one place for the first time in about 10 years. Hopefully I can get to mom's computer to upload some photos of that trip. It was nice being around family and wished we could have more time to visit. I am grateful for Facebook and text messages so I can keep in touch with my cousins even though we live so far away from each other.

March: Pretty quiet month for the most part. Got another roommate named Shane, who is the husband of Jess's friend Charity. He is a awesome guy and brought his cutie bulldog mix named Deja. She is such a love bug and she is nice to have around. OH, and LOTS of birthdays in March.. Lots. If I missed wishing anyone a good day then I'm sorry. At one point I counted out about 5 days in which I didn't have to wish someone I know a "Happy Birthday". So please, please, dear family and friends stop getting pregnant in June.

April: Not much to report yet other than trying to go to the gym everyday that I work. To clarify my gym is in the same parking lot of my work so there really isn't any excuse for me not to go. Also started tanning as well which is something I thought I wouldn't do ever. To my utter surprise I am loving it because I'm sleeping better! The other benefit is that I am looking healthy and not pale pasty white either. I do wear sunblock and I am not trying for the leather look, but more for the healthy glow of youth. Yea, that's it.

Well here's to something of an update on my life. I will try to get better about posting though I am better than my sister Jess!

Love, kisses, and many giggles
-T